Goodbye Baby #3
Friday, August 31, 2007

At this moment, Dear and I have come to a decision that probably we will "stop" at Qiqi. Not sure if we can have the strength to handle a #3 if the baby pops. Another worrying factor is, if I could take it if its a girl again. I really don't wanna think about it.
I was so envy of my friend who is 4th month pregnant, went for ultrascan, and its a girl for her. She already had a 15mth year old boy. Green with envy is all I could describe. I wish I could be like her. Maybe then, I will feel my life is so complete.
I still don't know why God just didn't give me a boy. I am still asking him. I am still having a little hope that he will if I really decide on having a 3rd kid. I went fortune telling, all of them said, I will have boys, then how come I end up with 2 girls?? Questions questions questions.
Ok, Baby is crying, confirmed is a burst diaper... gotta run.